Unthinkable Tragedy

Woke up this morning hearing that a two year old little boy 

was grabbed by an alligator at Walt Disney World...

"the place where wishes come true"

How could this be? Why would this happen?

Please explain it to me. 

We go to Disney often, and living here in Central Florida 

we are accustomed to seeing gators everywhere. 

We have learned to be guarded and aware that they are usually around most water

but it is unthinkable that this would happen to a child, 

and certainly not at Disney - the most magical of all places! 

It breaks my heart that this family's life has been shattered forever.

I watched Ethan and Abbey today and I gave them a few extra hugs and kisses. 

We had a good day, but I see them growing right before my eyes.

They bring me so much joy, even so, 

sometimes I think Heaven would be so much better than all the struggles we face here on earth. 

Sometimes I feel, "Lord, I'm ready, take me now"

Just being honest here. 

This year has not been a good one.  

I've heard of so much tragedy and pain, and, I lost my mother. 

I thought I was better prepared to lose her - stupid me. 

I am a mess tonight. I was fine today, but tonight I'm a mess. 

I'm growing weary of the day to day struggles.

I know they are a part of this life, and I know that I have so much to be thankful for

but tonight, I feel beaten and broken.