An Excruciating Day

Today was a rough day and that's putting it mildly.

I'm sensing more and more that Milli won't be around much longer. 

She looks thin...VERY thin. 

She still has an appetite but what she eats seems to come out too easily. 

Manny is getting upset because she has so many accidents 

and I don't blame him.

So I agonized all night, and woke up to yet another mess to clean.

Gave her a bath...he left for work

and then I began to notice how disoriented she was. 

That just seems to be the case more and more lately, 

so I mustered up all my strength and made the decision to call the vet.
I called, but they close early on Wednesdays

and they told me I'd have to have her in there by a certain time 

and I saw that that was NOT going to happen.

I could barely see to dial the phone from crying let alone drive 

and I had asked Manny to please come home so he could go with me.

I wasn't able to get her into the vet in time, 

I tried calling a friend of mine who is a vet but has moved out of town, 

She was hour away but said she would do it if we could get her there.

I really dreaded an hour drive to do what I was going to do. 

I called my son's vet, but they closed early on Wednesday, too. 

I didn't want to take Milli to a stranger. 

My vet had told me about another vet who would come to our house

but she wouldn't be able to make it until 8 pm.

DO YOU KNOW THE TORTURE THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN?

Anyway, when Manny came home and looked at Milli

he asked me what was wrong with her, 

I told him she had been staring into space...

he said, "So? She does that."

Suddenly, he was naming all these reasons why we shouldn't end her life just yet. 

He said he doesn't think she's in any kind of pain, she still has an appetite

she's just an AFLAC (that's what he calls old people).

I am thankful for the way this day has ended

and Milli is still with us, but the inevitable is still lingering.

I'm going to bed now, and pray for restful sleep. 

Tomorrow is our day with Ethan

and it's also Sarah's FIRST BIRTHDAY!!!